It's a Good Friday weekend. Thing are doing pretty well this weekend despite the unnecessary stress that I have giving myself. I went over to DD's place on Thurs evening and I came home on Fri morning (cause DD had to work on Easter Day, poor thing). I am suppose to meet a good friend from poly days but I can't go out cause I was feeling very down when I got home on Fri. Somehow on Fri, I feel anxious and can't control my thoughts (negative thoughts - mainly unnecessary worries). I couldn't get the courage to go out on my own. So I decided to stay at home so that I won't scared my friend if anything happens to him. I realised whenever I had anxiety or worry, I will feel my heart pumping hard and faster, my throat became dryer and my lower abs cramps, then I will feel headache, giddiness and a strong fear of fainting or becoming crazy will kick in. It is a very scary experience. However, I tell myself. All of these are tests for me. Test for me to become a stronger person. So I am accepting that things is who I am and I will be a stronger person after all these are over. I must have confidence in myself. *Go Girl!!!* So yah, Friday was kind of a confused, worried state.
On Saturday, things were much much better. I meet up with Weiliang, Michael, Jamie & Cheryl for buffet brunch at Meriteus Mardarin and Lijia joined us after that for movie. Brunch was good although I keep having the feeling that my heart was pumping harder for a few minutes on and off during the day. But I enjoyed that time with them. We made a trip down to Jamie and Cheryl's place. I thought it was really nicely decorated. I like their design. And Cheryl is giving birth soon next month. Really happy for the couple. :-D
We went for movies after that. We watched Fast and Furious 4 - It's not bad, a brainless show with cars and babes. My DD came to join us for dinner together and this is the 1st time I introduce him formally. I'm glad DD didn't feel out of place and managed to talk to my buddies. He can interact with them quite well and I am happy about that. We went for pool after dinner and had a great time there. It's been a long time since I have been playing pool with all of them. It was really fun. I stayed over at DD place on Sat. I was so tired that I fell asleep the moment I hit the bed. :P
Today is Sunday. I slept all the way till 10am. It was really a good sleep for this whole week. Suppose to go swimming today. But unsuccessful cause I was too lazy once again. Must try again next week. Hahaha. We did went out to run some errands - paid the remaining travel fees, went to buy pork floss for DD's dad at Chinatown and went to Funan to get DD's software. After that we just had a relaxing evening at his place watching the movie Australia. Overall, the weekend was good.
I must keep telling myself that everything that is happening to me is part of my life story that makes me a unique person. Whenever I start to have bad thoughts, I must tell myself this - Stop worrying!!! And enjoy life with my DD and my love ones. Life is too short to be worrying too much things!! When bad things happens, it's a test for me and I will pass whatever tests and be a stronger person!! I must trust myself!!!
On Saturday, things were much much better. I meet up with Weiliang, Michael, Jamie & Cheryl for buffet brunch at Meriteus Mardarin and Lijia joined us after that for movie. Brunch was good although I keep having the feeling that my heart was pumping harder for a few minutes on and off during the day. But I enjoyed that time with them. We made a trip down to Jamie and Cheryl's place. I thought it was really nicely decorated. I like their design. And Cheryl is giving birth soon next month. Really happy for the couple. :-D
We went for movies after that. We watched Fast and Furious 4 - It's not bad, a brainless show with cars and babes. My DD came to join us for dinner together and this is the 1st time I introduce him formally. I'm glad DD didn't feel out of place and managed to talk to my buddies. He can interact with them quite well and I am happy about that. We went for pool after dinner and had a great time there. It's been a long time since I have been playing pool with all of them. It was really fun. I stayed over at DD place on Sat. I was so tired that I fell asleep the moment I hit the bed. :P
Today is Sunday. I slept all the way till 10am. It was really a good sleep for this whole week. Suppose to go swimming today. But unsuccessful cause I was too lazy once again. Must try again next week. Hahaha. We did went out to run some errands - paid the remaining travel fees, went to buy pork floss for DD's dad at Chinatown and went to Funan to get DD's software. After that we just had a relaxing evening at his place watching the movie Australia. Overall, the weekend was good.
I must keep telling myself that everything that is happening to me is part of my life story that makes me a unique person. Whenever I start to have bad thoughts, I must tell myself this - Stop worrying!!! And enjoy life with my DD and my love ones. Life is too short to be worrying too much things!! When bad things happens, it's a test for me and I will pass whatever tests and be a stronger person!! I must trust myself!!!
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