Am I Jinx??

I know that my World of Pink Elephant should just be for happy thoughts but the entry for today is slightly different. Not happy thoughts/moments but my agony and guilt. My DD got into another incident again today. He couldn't make stop at the traffic light in time and made a dash across the while the traffic light was red. There were two red light cameras on that road. Somehow, at the point of time, I was talking to him and he got distracted and forgot to reduce his speed when approaching the traffic light. We didn't know if red light cameras were for the side of the road that we were at or for the road on the other side. The agony of the unknown.

Somehow or rather, I just can't help feeling that the incident on Fri and today were all my fault. If my DD didn't come pick me up on Fri , he won't have bumped into another car. And today, I shouldn't have gotten so excited and keep talking to him while he was on the road. Seems like I can't get happy or excited when I'm in his car as this clearly will distract him. Or maybe I am actually a distraction for him? Am I a jinx? The feeling of guilt is very strong. I am trying hard to stay positive on this one. Trying very hard..... It's not just only the guilt. I also feel that I can't be of any help to him when such a thing happen. I feel so useless. I guess I need some time to get over these two incidents.

To think on the bright side, the two incidents will make my DD a better driver, hopefully to be able to calm himself down. I realised when he gets happy and excited (especially when I'm with him), I can feel he gets eagerness and strong desire to drive me around as he knows that I like to explore around different places to experience different sights and scenes of Singapore. However, this will often tend distract him. I guess both of us have to slow our minds and thoughts down. I forgot that he can read my mind and I can feel his thoughts. Unknowingly, both of us are trying to rush into things in order to fill our life with lots of good memories (maybe?).

Also he is unfamilar with the road conditions in Singapore, therefore such mistakes are unavoidable? I am trying my best to help him keep a look out for the road conditions (trying not to make it as if I'm nagging) but I just feel I'm not doing a good job. *sigh*

Things will definately be better, my DD's driving skill will improve definately. He will be a safer and more focus driver. And by then, hopefully he will enjoy better driving experience and I will enjoy the ride in his car. Enough of the unhappy thoughts. Time to get back to my world of happy thoughts (World of Pink Elephant).

I am really glad for my DD that he has a group of great supportive friends. Friends like Jason (his best buddy). Jason is a funny guy and can often brighten up my DD's mood with his humor. I am glad he has such a great friend to support him during his ups and downs.

Saw something nice today. Although the weather is kinna hot today but the sunset at my DD's place is really nice. Not the most spectacular sunset today (according to his mum) but it was really beautiful. Hopefully I can capture nicer sunset one of the days. Beauty of nature always cheers me up and brightens my day.